buzzing things >_<

crocs sale at senci takes people on the queue since 9 am, from 8th floor to the 6th floor!

a friend unnecessarily bossing around, plus being grumpy still!

and still, i felt pity to her due to the slavish manner of her guy, which always waste and bossing her! and they're not even a couple!

and this bossy girl, does almost everything he asked, materially, physically, and seriously!

damned architect for not returning phone and email for too long!

husband on extra hour on extra meeting 3 days in a row, in the vacation week!

damned frizzy hair and red spots on my face!

stupid deadline, stupid objects, stupid schedules!

cash runs dry!

lame internets connection!

....hhhh.... peluk.....

collecting songs

my pick of music seems like stopped in the middle of my college year. which is frankly, perhaps is, by the time i feel like having myself completely wholly*
hihi... yea its like what its sounds. by that time i like them to make my days. but now i like them more as a beautiful colouring background,
and for some small particular times i need to re-gather myself ^_^
so while i still remember, since all i have is just the cassettes... here are the wishlists of albums or mp3 playlists i want to collect. for making my days, which also good for my backgrounds. umm yea... its going to be long list... and the list will be ordered as in my term of times, junior high-high school-college->closing.

1. Hanson - In the Middle of Nowhere (1997)

this is now becoming like such a guilty pleasure. but i still really think they're good, and this album is solid good. even actually im interested with their this time around and underneath.



2. Simply Red - It's Only Love (2000)

i actually dont know them well. but i keep remember their songs, and it looks like that i recognize their voice. what left marks on me for the most is just their say you love me, actually only that.



3. Lighthouse Family - Postcards from Heaven (1997)

beautiful songs, even i already use this album for background by that times. and this is maybe also the 1st time i found my true and effective pattern of buying albums, intuition :D yea, after all list i've made, i remember i picked this one randomly.

4. Jewel - Spirit (1998)
i continue buying albums randomly. when im buying it, i actually dont know any singles inside it, but in her previous album. but this albums seems doing good with me. i hadn't buy any more album for around 2 years after this one.


5. OST. The Lion King 2 - Return to Pride Rock (1998)

i love the movie. i love the characters. mood lifting songs.


6. Padi - Lain Dunia (1999) & Sesuatu yang Tertunda (2001)



7. Alanis Morisette - MTV Unplugged (1999)



8. Songs from Dawson's Creek - Vol 1 (1999) & Vol 2 (2000)



9. Green Day - Nimrod (1997)




10. Bryan Adams - The Best of Me (1999)



11. Embrace - If You've Never Been (2001)




12. Pet Shop Boys - Release (2002)




13. Ben Folds - Rockin the Suburbs (2001)




14. Club 8 - Spring Came, Rain Fell (2002)




15. Prambors Hits (2002)




16. Nelly Furtado - Whoa, Nelly! (2002)




17. Counting Crows - Films about Ghosts, The Best of... (2003)



18. The Best of R.E.M in time 1988-2003 (2003)




19. Matchbox Twenty - More than You Think You are (2002)




20. Norah Jones - Feels Like Home (2004)



---------then i remind some more :)


21. Michael Learns to Rock - Nothing to  Lose

22. U2 - All That You cant Leave Behind

23. The Corrs - Best of The Corrs

a selfish blog diary

its a diary, so its permitted to be selfish, the way i like it here.

here im about to steal trivias, things i always love, from a friend's blog.
i call it steal becuse until now, still i cant certainly decide if this public is open for public or not.
i actually cant wait to 'show off' my things, which are disorderly all me. but part of me just cant let it happen easily. even maybe that also the reason why i use english for this blog. yea its no regulation, may someday i will go back to bahasa... ^^
is it shyness, unconfidence, or a simply cowardy things i couldnt even care about.
well, as time goes by, thats what usually happen. hihi, i seems like prefer to be found , as always.

as if people would like to like what they found ^^ oh whatever.
then here are the trivias.

1. about my appetite

although now i avoid it as hard as i can, i think junkfood will always be on my top list of my fav. name it, fries, burger, fried stuff, salty crispy things in my mouth, i seems never get bored of them no matter how often i eat it or how undone they're cooked.
since then i know it that i have a bad taste for food. i cant differentiate any of them as long as they dont look like puke. my flaws. maybe thats why i dont really like seafood, especially when theyre not fried or covered with flours. theyre slimy, unshaped, and clams, they are black!
but anyway, i eat everythings. trully everythings. that some particular times i could eat them the uglies too. so actually all kind of food may have hopes on me :D
and for my own goodness, especially when i left alone with anything to eat, i thanked my self for always love breakfast food. i always love simple menu. good for my bad taste. good for my bad luck in the kitchen. good for my health.

2. about my phobias

i would say i dont have one
but maybe what i afraid for the most is losing, losing peoples i love
and of course before it, is of course loving itself :D what i mean is loving loving, which happened among more than one people only, which involved counting and depending on someone else not me.
maybe because i actually usually feel i could depend on myself for everything about myself (well i dont name it confidence, i believe its faith) and on the other hand, i feel i could never really know, or even allowed, to count or depend on other people.
yah anyway, i know it too, silly, and cliche. but it is what it is. i've dealt with it :D (i believe its faith, too)

3. about places

i am now crazy with singapore. as i found out maybe thats because i also crazy with jakarta here where im in. dont have to mention jakarta as a big city though. as i often say, im a small city town girl ^^ i love small savvy cute friendly and a bit vintage environment, lots to play and find out. im not really into greenies or natural environment though.

4. about my hands

is desperately be my favourite part of my body. i also kinda surprised that it havent even changed :D they are, small, fatty, and unbalanced. they just couldn't go simply straight. anyway i think theyre kinda cute. yea, totally subjective...

5. about my collections

haha! these kind of quizzes and trivia things, perhaps are actually my trully everlasting collections! if only i could collect my peoples filling these too, i would be very very glad. i like to get to know people as i like to get to know myself, there are always something new.... humm... yea, but its too stupid for them anyway.

6. about my idols

i dont really have one. i love people so many and so much, but as i say im not really into other people that much. humm... but i tend to like smart and ingenious and inspiring people :D i like george clooney for his attitude, i like zooey deschanel for her image and appearance, i like jk rowling for her complicated and heartful stories, and i cant forget usagi aka sailor moon for her power of love :D thats all for now

7. about my guilty pleasures

junkfood, easy movie, spoiled my self with whole a lot of me time,
and judge a product by its advertisements and packaging :D

8. about my personal issues

im in love and im happy. im married and im happy. love is good. this is beautiful.i hope i remember that for the rest of my life.
no matter how cliche and idiotic it could sounds sometimes.
lets say, its faith.

*hap hap ^_^

me vs the world

1. poverty-hunger-ignorance
2. stupidity-slavery-harassment
3. violence-bullies-mental illness
4. crime-war-politics
and
5. love-education-self consciousness

i found myself as a person who hate those upper 4 lists for the most, its my priorities.
which could be resolved with the 5th lists. pathetically, sadly, cliche. dunno why, but still feel them as a basic resolution, the key to the world.
they are such a bottom-up sicknesses i totally cant stand up. things i cant help to just ignore, but stay in my wildest deepest wishes. wild, because it must be took hell a lot of energy, time, regulation, power, and money... deep, because its cliche. i kinda dont trust cliche. i kinda dont trust myself. so i ll just keep it till i dont know when. it will still remain as my wish though.

love & peace,
amen.

being just a half

belum pingin pulang...

i feels like wanting sleeping in the office. with internet and my repeated playlist. music, it gets me wholly for many times. thanked god it doesnt happen frequently lately. but just in some particular times, like now... (sigh, laid my head on my desk)
nothings really happen actually. im just behalf on my pre-period moment. probably. i feel good. kinda empty. but good. my batteries run dry. but good... (sigh, laid my back on my chair)
i feel like able sleeping in the office.
i feel like able to awake all night tonight.
i feel like able to hold on like this just for ever.
i feel like feeling good, half conscious, but just good.
hmmm... there are times like this to write huh... i might forgot...

hmmm... however im glad i have husband to remember to awake, right about now.
half awake, but just good. hmmm... i simply just have to go home ya.
^^