no mercy

i want to watch the movie harry potter

i want to watch the movie eclipse

i want to watch the movie x men

i want to finish reading the book children are from heaven

i want to buy and read (again) some other female magazine

i want to stroll in the morning

i want to do sunbathing in the afternoon

i want to eat a joy flavour ice cream

i want to buy you my favorite ice cream

i want to eat junkfood with a little cute guilt

i want to sail the city in the smell of freedom

i want to simply hold your hand like freedom

i want to have my dvd night again

i want to share my favorite movie to you

i want to do yoga again

i want to blog, the result is almost the same for me

i want to go shopping by myself

i want to go alone without feeling alone

i want to have that old wise friend in you

i want to crazily redecorate my house and my house-to-be

i want to have those silly fight about that house

i want to be complained in any crazy decision ive made

i want to feel free to love

i want to love you, without hesitate

i want you

and this is all about me and what i do

and oh yeah actually i dare to do everything.

too ready for a fall

im tired. like everyone else.
i write words, many times, just to delete it again. the substance is the same.
seasons change. we oftenly screwed, each other. but still, its easier for me to deal with you, than with myself, as usual. and so its kinda impossible for me to forgive myself.
that i feel like now i won't be surprised if u hate me, or worse.
that i feel like im ready to love u alone, by myself, as i used to do with peoples back then before.
i love u i love u i love u. and i dont need anything else. to make u suffer will never be my objective. id rather go.

i love him. and trust him. more than everyone i ever known. and im not telling this for him to stay. im telling this to show how screwed i am. and the choice is his.