something in my throat

:and push me uptight

the time is close
and still i couldnt imagine

its not the pain haunting
but the eyes surrounding

while i will own my time by the time is coming
eventually not for the rest after delivering

:sigh

consciousness knocking
only to you i could count

and to him i could fall
turn my head and my heart off

:hug

and to you my dear who i will always see
and i will always watch no matter what

is the magic spell that i always whisper
words i wish you to recognize sometimes sooner

:smile

god is good
life is good
love is good
you are good

:chuckle

its just that i love you
both

home to be

bismillah untuk rumah bahagianya ya tuhan ya... ^_^

masih ttg box bayi >_<

adeeeek... kalo kamu pilih yg mana sebenernyaaaa...
tadi mlm mengira2 mekanismenya kalo kamu tidur di matras doang, di lantai, tapi kok kynya ga tega... ehk... smp mimpi...

terus tadi liat web box bayi kayu...

di baby belle
bagus... tapi mahal... tapi bagus buat adeknya... tapi mahal >_<
apalagi yang tipe angela atau winston... mamanya sangat suka... sptnya kalo adeknya udh gedean pun masih bisa buat duduk2 main dan nyimpen barang...
yg paling masuk akal *sekaligus paling murah* adlh yg tipe chelsea atau christopher... itupun udah 1,85jt... tapi desain dan standard baby belle emg udh bagus si... bahannya aja mahogani...

di topbgt
standard lah... box bahan kayu ramin... harga jauh di bawah baby belle... sdh ckp mungkin ya buat adeknya... secara papamamanya jg pake matras aja :p
yg lumayan yg seri HK066 without box atau seri HK1008...

hfuuuh adek... kamu mau yg mana...
yg kayu atau yg portable...
mamanya nggak sabar nungguin papanya pulang ngeliat box 2nd yg masih harus direnov itu... >_<

dilema box adek

uh... pilih yg mana baiknya...

box kayu ayu
karena bahannya kayu harapannya bisa direnov, mgkn tampilan dan kekuatannya bs ter-upgrade... meski usianya sdh hampir 20 tahun...
tapi kalo box kayu sbnrnya agak ragu jg krn kalo udh ga kepake susah nyimpennya... kok sptnya tdk efisien... ya biar ntar diliat mviko dulu deh bs diefektifkan sejauh apa...

kecuali kalo desainnya begini :D
tapi yg ini harganya 3,6jt... hihihi... nggak lah...

mothercare travelcot - cloud
suka modelnya, simpel, harga kaskus 650rb, sptnya affordable, mothercare pun, insy kualitas ok, spt reviewnya
tapi ini ga ada bassinet buat newbornnya... padahal maunya sekali beli dapet semua...

graco pack n' play playard
modelnya lumayan, ga terlalu bermotif, warna ckp netral, tapi emg masih agak printilan sih, kecuali yg tipe Kensley ini. sejauh ini sebenernya ini yg paling best deal... 780rb harga online, fungsi komplit, ada bassinet-cot-dan compact, portable...
tapi mviko kynya ga terlalu suka... berharap dikadoin anak2 aja apa ya :D ada sih di wishlist yg sdh dipublish...

mothercare bassinette and travelcot
dan ini adalah yg paling menggiurkan. mviko jg sptnya akan suka... mothercare cot yg ada bassinetnya. polos dan simpel...
tapi secara barangnya rada2 ga massal sptnya, harganya sama pedagang kaskus aja 1,7 jt *nanyanya pun by request*, blm ditawar si, tapi blm apa2 udah hampir 3x lipat sama yg travelcot tanpa bassinette seperti di atas... padahal bassinette dipakenya paling lama setahun aja, habis itu ga dipake lagi...

kasur matras kecil :D
yg paling masuk akal untuk dibeli sekarang adalah yg ini.... harganya sptnya 200rb-an saja... fungsional, aman, dan portable juga tho... habis dipikir2 emg perlu wadah tidur khusus buat adek, biarpun adeknya cepet gede juga... kan biar adek bisa belajar bobo sendiri, dan ga kesempitan di kasur mamapapanya yg cuma lebar 120 :D
hihihi, ya mgkn sbg usaha, kalo bisa ukurannya disesuaiin sama box ayu... meski kemaren sambil rada ngantuk dan gelap2an pas ngukurnya, kayanya si ukuran boxnya 60cm-an x 120cm-an...

real hug and thank you

i like doing chores for my baby, its not like im doing push-ups
i cant stand being noticed all the time, dont bother to keep walking while im around

i like doing clean-ups, im not in a rush though
i cant stand being served too much yet i couldnt refuse, you can ask before do me a favor

i realize and count every move im doing, i do realize too i have a newborn to be inside me
i cant stand being judged about my capability, you can ask instead of judge

im a laid-back person and you know it, so dont worry im forcing myself too far
i cant stand being told about what i feel, dont ask if you cant hear

i know this is big, and even bigger
i cant stand being warned all the time, i have limits and i can stop myself

i also count my times, and i know when is to stop
i cant stand being dictated, just dont pretend to ask

i definately hear you and everyone, those things i know are for the best
i cant stand being ordered, you are all sometimes somehow a way too far

please shower me those loves, infos, knowledges, advices, those things i desperately need
then you can hug and please, let me do the rest

ps:
ive actually passed this term at my worst, but still this feeling slightly comes sometimes
umm yea i know you love us that much , thats what i count on ^^